New essay in Petit Mort Mag!

I just published an excerpt from the chapter on my elective surgery in my work-in-progress memoir. The theme of the issue is GAUCHE, and I relate to that. When I got my implants, my friends had OPINIONS. It was not considered cool within my circle of hair band dudes. I was annoyed that they felt entitled to put me down for it. I think it makes sense to critique plastic surgery, its safety, and what it means to choose it in a capitalist and patriarchal society, but they weren’t doing that. They were generally homophobic and misogynistic. I’ve never been able to fully understand their reactions. What does it mean when people who are so awful to their women are opposed to the women they consider theirs, whether in community or individually, enhancing their bodies? It felt more as if they didn’t want to associate with someone who wasn’t perfect to begin with, rather than them hoping I would stay natural out of self-love. They seemed to resent my independence and ambition. I considered that entirely their problem.

If you’ve seen my solo show, you’ve probably heard me talk about how I watched several of the women around me get boob jobs, make a ton of money, and leave their shitty relationships. I did too. I left them in the dust. I packed up my titties and I moved to New York City, where all my dreams came true. So long, suckers!

You can check out the magazine here:

https://www.petitmort.com/all